Sunday, July 31, 2011

Long weekend

Hope everyone is enjoying their long weekend. The weather here has been beautiful and it's a shame that we weren't able to spend it out in our motorhome. We did get a lot accomplished though so I guess that makes up for it. I'm not entirely sure that Scott enjoyed his first week camping so I think that he is procrastinating going back out - but he'll never admit that. We did just spend a few grand on the motorhome a month ago so we really should use it (well my parents did anyway). I think I'll get it all ready and just pick a week, grab the kids and we'll head out. I do plan on going to spend some time with my parents if my mom's health takes any turn for the worst. I think it'll be really good for us all to spend some time together.

We still do not have any more news on my mom's condition or prognosis yet. Hopefully this coming week we will know something more.

Tomorrow is Scott's birthday. I hate this time of year (or any time that I have to shop for him) because he is the hardest person to shop for. He is the type that when he wants something he will just go out and buy it right away plus he's very picky too. This year I have bought him nothing so far and his birthday is in 54 minutes. I hope that I have an epiphany while I'm sleeping tonight. LoL!! Wish me luck ...

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Monday, July 25, 2011

I had a bad day :0(

I woke up this morning and I felt really great. I was well rested, energized and ready to tackle the cleaning that was severely needed in my home. I got off to a great start. I figured that if I started with the kitchen, I should be able to finish that before my doctor's appointment. Dax went down for a nap early and everything was going good.
Kitchen done, diaper bag ready, and all set to go to the doctor ... I wake Dax up - he was even in a pretty good mood. Put him in the car seat and off we go. Or not!!! Last night when we went to Scott's parents house I had put my keys in the backseat of his car and I must have left them there. Shitty. Oh well. I just rescheduled the appointment. Sucks that I woke Dax up but I can bounce back from this (I find it hard to recover from things lately due to the post partum depression). So I start cleaning the motorhome and the garage. Things still looking good. Dax is in a good mood and I'm cruising along.
My mom has a doctor's appointment at 2:00. I'm keeping an eye on the clock because I'm suppose to get a phone call from Doris with the prognosis. The appointment is about the results of my mom's CT scan. Finally at 3ish I get this text
" Im going to the casino with mom & dad, her appointment was not very good its spreading may be stage 4 she probably have to have chemo. I'll call u when I get home"
Wow that sucked. Not a lot of info there. Maybe it isn't as bad as it sounds. I mean if they're gonna do chemo then maybe it's just spread a little bit.
Skip ahead an hour and a bit. I finally get a call from Kaylee - yeah my 9 year old daughter - asking me if I've heard the news yet. I really didn't need to hear that she knew more about the appointment than I did.
Well that's how my great day turned really bad ...
The diagnosis -
The melanoma that was diagnosed just a little over a year ago is now stage 4 malignant melanoma with metastasis in the lung, liver, kidney, and spine. My mom is full of cancer and I am now going to have to watch the most wonderful mom, grandma, great-grandma, wife, sister and dear friend die one of the most agonizing deaths there are. This woman would literally do anything for anyone - even complete strangers. She has such a caring heart and loves everyone. Thus is going to be the hardest thing that I have ever had to endure. She's my mom, my rock, and my best friend. All I can do now is pray that God takes her home with Him quietly and without a fuss so she does not feel any pain.

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Wednesday, July 20, 2011

9 months

It's been a while since I posted and I really need to try harder. A lot has happened in the past month and a half but at the same time nothing has happened at all. Just life, passing by like the blink of an eye. I cannot believe that my little monster is 9 months old today! It's crazy. He's just getting so big! He's crawling around, getting into everything, and teething so badly. I can't wait until those teeth come in.

He's a real little cutie!

Happy 9 months sweetheart!

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