Thursday, September 29, 2011


After a long, painful battle with cancer, my mom was finally released from her suffering yesterday. I will miss her forever, but am so relieved that she's in heaven now.

Love you mommy!!

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Friday, September 23, 2011

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Even after all that

I still lost weight. Yay! In the 10 days since I started my diet I've lost a total of 6 lbs. I'm so excited about that! I was so worried that being at the hospital and not eating the healthiest while there was going to bite me in the butt. But I survived it.

Dax has been such a cutie in the past couple days. I can really tell that he's feeling better. He's such a goofy baby. Boy, do I love that little guy.

I think the whole family is going to head home this weekend to see mom. Can't wait to see her again.

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Feeling better

I'm feeling much, much better but that is the only thing good about this week.

Scott, got sick at the same time and then Dax wasn't feeling the best either. Kaylee woke up on Tuesday morning with a sore throat and I just thought that could be all that I could possibly handle in one day. Then shortly after I get a text from my sister that I should make arrangements to come and spend some time with my mom since they moved her to palliative care and it looks like she's going downhill quickly. She's still hanging in there so far and I've stayed at the hospital with her for a few days. I will blog more about my hospital stay and all that in a future post.

Sorry that this is all over the place but I have a job interview in an hour and I'm NERVOUS!! Wish me luck!

Friday, September 16, 2011

Arg ... This sucks!!

I'm sick :0(

I have a nasty flu. Sore throat, itchy nose, eyes and ears, chills and so on .... So, that means that I should have stayed home and rested - right?? Nope ... not me. I guess I'm a trooper - or at least my husband thinks so. We left the house today at 9:30 and "shopped" or "gallivanted" all day long. We didn't get home until 5:00. Real good resting day for my cold.

It was a great day though other than the sick part. We did some shopping, went out for a nice lunch (where I followed my diet well) and then got some awesome deals at the blockbuster movie stores that are going out of business. It was great. I always love a good bargain.

Diet is going good. I did cheat a bit tonight (bad me) as I had a scoop of ice cream after dinner. Hopefully it won't show in my weigh in tomorrow (but with my luck it will). Guess we'll know soon enough ....

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Thursday, September 15, 2011

So is it really worth it??

Well I just had my first weigh-in. I'm at day 3 right now and really questioning if this is worth it? Is it the right time for me (because of my mom and the fact that I like to eat my emotions)? Is it going to help at all? I went into the weigh-in today with all those questions and the answer is ....


In 3 days I have already lost 2.5 lbs. That's over 1 kg!!! In 3 days. I remember last time I did this program I lost 6 lbs in the first week and I'm gearing up to do the same this time. Yeah me!!!

I am struggling though. It's hard going from limitless food intake to 1100 calories a day. Snacking is a huge issue for me but I'm managing to stay away from the temptations. I think that the reason why I'm so successful with this program is that the recipes are so good you don't even feel like you're on a diet. Tonight for dinner I had a huge taco salad with all the fixings and it was only 400 calories. It was great!!! I can't wait until next week though when I get to introduce a snack into my day and raise my caloric intake to 1300.

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Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Day 2

I'm HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhhhh ... 1100 calories a day is not enough for me!!!  I normally enjoy snacking on all kinds of things at pretty much all hours of the day. We have all kinds of healthy and junky snacks in the house. I miss my snacking! This is really hard!!

Honestly though - I'm not sure if I'm really hungry or if it's a combination of boredom, habit and a terrible carb addiction. I know right now it's hard but I also know from experience that it will get easier and it will get better .... AND I will look fabulous when I'm all done.

P.S. I realised that my "wordless wednesday" yesterday was actually posted on Tuesday. Maybe next week I will get it right.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

I'm stealing this from a fellow blogger ... Great idea! Thanks!!

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1 day down ... too many to count left to go

The dreaded first day of the diet is down and it wasn't too too bad. I've had better days by far but considering everything else that happened today - the diet was the least of my worries.

My mom is back in the hospital again. Hopefully it's just for a few days and she can get strong enough to go back home. I'm saying that because I'm hoping for the best but I know that she is not going to get better. I just don't want her to suffer and I can already see in her eyes that's she's miserable. I wish there was anything I could do to make it better. But I can't. It sucks!!

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Monday, September 12, 2011

The next 24 weeks ....

I'm tired of being ... well tired. I have no energy, am bored all the time, find no excitement in anything and just want to curl up on the couch and do nothing. This has been me for the past several months. Between thyroid issues, ppd, and a major weight gain that I just can't come back from, I've had it. I NEED to do something ... and so I shall. For the next 24 weeks I will be on a strict diet and lifestyle change. I know this will work to regain my self esteem and energy because I have done it before and it worked well. Only thing was that I got pregnant before I was finished. Now I'm going to finish it. Wish me luck .....