Today I got all my finances in order so that I can pay for my surgery. I went to the bank and made a 14,000.00 deposit on my credit card. Ouch!! I really wish I could keep the money for me ... actually in a way I am :o) This is all about me. My deepest desire to be healthy and slim is looking like it might actually happen. Wow. I still can't believe it. I'm actually going to do this! Scary ... Crazy ... and so very, very exciting.